The CHAT SHACK

So, to start off with, there are times when I really feel like I have a lot on my plate. Especially online with the site and emails and all. And I try to keep pushing as hard as I can to make things work, and everything gets in the way, and it's a set up for me to fail at just about everything. When that happens, I can begin feeling really 'down', you know? I kinda 'punish' myself for not being good enough...to the point where I burn out and just wanna lock myself in a room and run away from the whole world for a while. The thing is...I feel 'guilty' about doing that. Because I'm running away from the people that love and care about me. And the SECOND I tell everybody to get away from me...I miss them terribly and want them back. So even with all the love and attention in the world...it can still be really lonely sometimes. I get stuck between wanting love and attention, and being so 'flooded' by it that it becomes frightening. So these are some of the songs that I listen to when I'm feeling overwhelmed. Songs where almost every lyric describes the feeling perfectly. Heh...'Comicality' with issues. It sounds so silly. Even to me. :P

(I posted videos with just the lyrics on the screen. Simply because the visuals almost never match what I thought the video would be about. I sorta make up my own videos in my head. Except for 'Everclear'...because they didn't have one with just lyrics. Cool?)